Dear friend,
I want to tell you about a time in my life when I felt completely stuck. Feeling helpless and fundamentally flawed. In a limbo of knowing but not experiencing. Interestingly it came about after some wonderful realizations about life. Insights that I thought would take me to where I want to be. But I was missing something. I want to share that here with you.
I reached a point where I understood that what other people do isn't a reflection of me but of them. On top of that I recognized I, and I alone, attract every experience in my life, good and bad, by my vibrational attitude I daily emit. So when unpleasant things would happen to me I wouldn't get upset at others or the circumstances, but at myself. "I attracted this in some way, so the fault lies with me", I'd say to myself.
In a way this insight was worse than before I understood these things, because back then at least I felt a sense of innocence and righteousness. But after the realizations I just constantly felt guilty. Guilty that I was still attracting unwanted things, that I should be better at this; that I know too much to be anxious, self-conscious, afraid.
It wasn't until almost two years later that I realized the grace I was giving to others I wasn't extending to myself. What changed for me was finally letting go of what I thought I should be, do, have, and accepting my "mishaps" and my "flaws." Just doing this has given me the wonderful sense of knowing who I am and knowing what I want. Which fuels a sense of worthiness and confidence I've never before experienced.
And so my hope with this post is that it helps you realize that we are all innocent — you included.
You are doing the best you can, and so is everyone else in their own world. You are enough, you can be, do, have, whatever it is you want. You just simply have to let go of the word "should", and lovingly believe in yourself. Accept you for all of you. It sounds easy, and it is, but we put so many conditions in our way that not until they are fulfilled will we finally accept ourselves. But you can't accept yourself in the future, you can only do it now. If you keep delaying accepting yourself, waiting to achieve this or acquire that, you will always find things to put in front of you before you allow you to accept yourself.
I'm telling you, you can do this right now. It takes trust in The Universe, God, Life, to let go of trying to control the things in your life in order to get what you want. It takes closing your eyes and falling backwards trusting that Life will not only catch you, but wrap Its arms around you with peace of mind and abundance of all you need and want.
If you can do this now, wonderful. If not now, it just means you don't yet want to trust that Life will always provide a way, that's ok.
Once you do let go of control and accept yourself, there is a chance you will wake tomorrow and feel like your old self, but that's just old patterns of thinking. It takes a little bit of time and focus to shift things that have been running on the same neural paths for years. But you'll be surprised at how fast your thoughts will begin to feel like they are on your side again. Yes, you will have days when you just can't seem to change the negativity around – that's ok. It's all part of the process. Keep letting go, keep trusting in Life, keep refocusing on things of positivity.
As long as your peace comes from your trust in Life and not external circumstances, you will feel invincible. You will want to take score and look at your external life to see if it's bearing the fruit you think it should, but do your best not to. Keep practicing unconditionally trusting that Life always works out for you. And very soon your life will transform to where everything around you supports your feelings of well being and blessings.
People will become attracted to you in more ways than you can understand right now. Opportunities to make your dreams come true will keep "coincidently" popping up in your days. Your idea of who you are and where you're going will become more and more clear. Your worries will fade until they are distant memories that you deliberately choose not to visit. You will finally feel a sense of Home that you haven't felt since the 90's or childhood. Life will feel right again.
All because you chose not to delay a day longer and finally, once and for all, wholly and truly accept yourself, and practiced every moment of everyday accepting yourself. Until eventually you fall in love with yourself. And when that happens you simultaneously fall in love with everyone in the world and everything. Love becomes everything. And everything can be seen in the framework of different degrees of love. Love is now the language you speak and you understand events and people as phenomena of love.
Like how the scientists know there is no actual source of "cold" but rather an absence of heat. And "darkness" is only lack of light. As that with love, all is love. You will see there are degrees of how much love is being allowed to flow in every given circumstance. And anything that feels bad isn't actually bad, but just needs more love. People will become like innocent children in your eyes and blame and criticism will feel completely pointless. You will treat yourself the same way, and when you are on your side, the whole world can't stop you. And in fact, the whole world will conspire to help you. Because the world is waiting for you to believe in yourself.
You can do it.
Let go of control.
Trust in Life.
Accept yourself completely.
Practice every moment in lovingly accepting yourself.
Be easy with yourself on bad days when you can't seem to shake it off.
Keep practicing.
Watch your life transform.
I believe in you.
Now it's time you do.
Love,
Bart
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